Last night or I guess I should say, 2 am this morning, I could hear my son whimpering in his sleep. I am blessed with a good sleeper, so I thought I’d wait a few minutes to see if he stopped. I mean it was 2 am and all I wanted to do was go back to sleep. He kept going so I reluctantly get up, grab my robe and head up to see what was going on.
He popped up as soon as I walked in and said mom I’m scared. He wasn’t sure why, but he did not want me going anywhere. I was really hoping all he needed was a sip of water, a kiss and then I could head back down to sleep.
He wanted me to lay down with him till he fell asleep. This has never happened. My mind immediately went to gee I hope this doesn’t become a habit. I don’t want to be doing this every night. I climbed in and snuggled next to him. Then his little arm wrapped around my neck and he said I love you mommy. My heart melted and I felt so guilty for wanting to rush back to bed. My little man just needed his mommy and comfort to know he was safe. Every so often his little eyes opened to make sure I was still there.
As I was lying there, he put his soft little feet into my hands. At that moment all I could think of was this sweet baby boy was turning 4 tomorrow. How did this happen? Why does it go so fast? And then a thought popped in my head…I need to slow down. I need to enjoy all these beautiful moments. Some day he won’t want his mommy to come running to the rescue or put those feet into my hands.
It’s so easy to run through life. There are always too many things on the to do list: go to work, clean the house, laundry, dinner, grocery store…repeat. I’m exhausted physically and mentally most days, but I must remember why I do all of this. Why, for my handsome boy that gave me the best job in the world, MOM!
I wanted to write this for all you moms and dads out there to remind you that you are doing great. Raising kids is tough. There are great times and rough times. At the end of the day, being a parent is the most rewarding thing you’ll ever do. We all just need to remind ourselves to slow down and enjoy every second, even if it’s 2am in the morning.